Isolation, Day 3

I got out of the hospital today but am still in isolation for 2 more days, at an undisclosed location. I will be home on Friday. Wow, was I happy to get out of the hospital! I sat outside and smelled the beautiful blossoms in the crisp spring air. I listened to the birds sing, I let the rain fall on my face and cried like a baby! I miss my hubby and my boys so much! I feel a renewed sense of gratitude for all the little things. It isn't that it was super bad in there. Actually it was a nice room on the 12th floor, with a nice big window and a view! Way nicer than I expected. And the nurses were very kind. Just something about freedom, I guess. Not sure if any of you know but my little brother David died in prison a few years ago. He found out he had stage 4 kidney cancer and only lived for a couple months after being diagnosed. So this time I've had in isolation I couldn't help but feel and relate what his death must have been like. He was alone. Nobody to help him, no nurse or doctor standing by. Treated like a leper. He didn't have a phone. I finally was able to get him a tv. Anyway, he suffered tremendously. I love him and miss him so much and I'm so glad he isn't suffering any longer. OK, enough of that. I can't sleep. Trying to stay positive and busy. My mom gave me the book "The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo" to read (thank's Mom). It's really good but my eyesight has gotten pretty bad so I can't read for long. I have glasses but my eyes get tired still. I've been sleeping a lot! I guess that's all part of the side affects of the radiation. As my daughter reported my scan was great! The cancer did not spread outside of the neck area. And my blood work was better than the doctor was expecting. My TSH was at .05 which is the goal "after" the treatment! So he said I may be lucky and get by with only one RAI treatment! That would be so awesome! I have another scan on the 18th to see if the radiation is working, and then they repeat this whole thing in 9 months to a year to see if there is any cancer left. If so they give me more RAI. So we have to wait that long to see if I'm cancer free. I'm not worried about that now at all. Right now I am so full of gratitude and have a lot of plans going on in my head! I wish my body could keep up but for now I'm really weak and pretty nauseous still. My first meal didn't go very well. I hadn't eaten for over 24 hours and then ate mexican food. Something really cheesy sounded good because I couldn't have dairy on this diet at all! Usually I have a pretty tough stomach but not now. Oops! I'm really thinking I have a food sensitivity to dairy now. Probably always have but after not having it and then adding it all of a sudden, I can see it. My mom always told me that as a baby I would throw my bottle. At a really young age. I've never liked milk. I'm a strong believer that kids eliminate things from their diet on their own, that their bodies don't like. My oldest son did this with most all processed food. He was ADHD and eliminated ketchup, mayo, fruit snacks, cookies, cakes, candies, etc.. My Mom swore he didn't have any tastebuds*lol*.